Days before infusion

So, this month is a little worse than last month in terms of the days before infusion. I am assuming this is due to me being at work. These "two days" before te infusion are beyond difficult. It's almost 3:00am and I'm laying here in bed with hot achy joints that hurt with any and every movement. My skin is all itchy, dry and rashy. My point finger is out of place and thumbs keep triggering. My eyes are Sooo dry. It's awful. During the day I felt like a fat ole achy slug. My body felt heavy and I was Sooo fatigued. I declared I can't do this - work & RA. However, I was told by friends and sisters few really bad days for a bunch of good ones. Soo... I lay in bed... With my new sleep apnea machine one, Pretty Woman playing on my iPad, Darla snoring away and olive licking my arm and if could cry I would be but my eyes hurt too much. I hate RA. I hate this so much. It's too hard...