I feel like I don't have anything to say. I just got out of being in the hospital for four days because of my Addison's Disease, and prior to that was in the ER on Wednesday bc of horrible chest pain and nausea. I feel like the PEs have really thrown my health, which was getting stable, and ME out of whack. I feel as though I want to throw in the bag and scream- i quit! I am tired of all this. Tired of RA. Tired of Sjogrens. Tired of AI. Tired of ALL the pills I swallow, shots I get. Tired of lab tests and needles. I am tired of it and don't have it in me. But then... God throws great friends my way who just show up in your hospital room, sisters who send great text messages, you get shaved lemon ice when you are nauseous, friends & cousins visit to say hi and their off spring SHOWER You with smiles, hugs and kisses, your mom listens to you cry your eyes out at 2:00am in the morning aaaaaaaaand you say to yourself "ok, one more day, I can do this one more day" but, one day turns into another, then a week passes by etc. Ugh.
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