Nights

Im awake. In the middle of the night... again! I have been having lots of nausea still at night. These past few nights i have horrible knee, leg and hand pain. It's currently 3:08am and I have two giant ice packs on each leg, my hands are BOTH in night splints (I'm dictating this) aaaand I took some good pain meds around 2:15... I am tired of the middle of the night interruptions. However, Olive is under the covers snuggled next to my back and Darla is SNORING away on top covers by my feet. Love my little dogs anywho... I am tired and just want to sleep! So annoying to lay in a bed and ache, like really ache! What's hard these days is I am finding I have energy and want to do things but stupid body physically can NOT do what I want to do - and man oh man does it frustrate me. And now it's happening at night! I want to be sleeping but nope! It stinks being awake at night... Although, when and if I make it down stairs and I open the back door to let girls out. I stop, look & listen-Theres the beautiful moon, the tall trees that sway in the breeze and most of the time (I'm By the hospital & busy street so often hear cars) I hear the creek/pond noises and I am yet again reminded that God who created all the nights and the nighttime beauty created ME and he created my body... So, then I close the door take a deep breath and realize yet again I can do this, I can live through these painful, restless and sleepless nights, and I do. So... Tonight's just one more to get through....