Here we go

Well, this afternoon has been one that was filled with LOTS of nerves, panic and anxiety because my dear friend Lloyd and his buddy and my new pal Alex with University of Chicago Friends and Family called saying they all of sudden they were able to get openings tomorrow for me – EEK! I was told when given an appointment you take it- but TOMORROW! I was told end of December beginning of January… this girl who plans, thinks things through, sorts through details ect… NOT READY, but here we go. Tomorrow Wednesday November 20, my journey with University of Chicago to get FRESH eyes to look things over shall begin AND we shall begin in the area of Rheumatology. This is the “easiest” of the areas that we are looking at. Tomorrow is an appointment, and im hoping that’s ALL it is. After talking with Alex & Lloyd and trying not to puke on the phone with them (when im really anxious I puke, not cool Mandy) we got the details squared away with things down at their end  THEN my end here began…phone calls began… who could go with me, my doctors needed to be informed, papers need to get ready, blood work… ect.. AHHH… Mandy a hot mess… In true fashion sent out the texts to family and my “Mandy family” and well as the night has progressed… I have been slowly calming down, I can do this… here is what I have been reminded and am constantly reminding myself:

-       my timing is never right, Gods is

-       I am created by God, although my body is unique -I am His, my diseases don’t define who I am. SO, yes let the doctor and his fellows exam me, poke me & my unique body but let them also see ME, Mandy.

-       these doctors are NOT trying to find anything NEW, just looking things over to see how they can HELP. Part of my nerves – every time I have seen a new doctor they tell me something else is wrong with me. But we have nothing new we are trying to figure out, we just want to see if we can improve, change or better things.

-       ive been down to U of C before and it was a great experience

A good friend of mine is going down with me and we heading down shortly afternoon. We have to stop at the clinic here to grab some things from my doctor and then we are off. My actual appointment is at 2:20. So… we shall see how it goes… and the start of another chapter in my book begins (if I ever write one)...

 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you HOPE and a future.
 Jeremiah 29:11