Sleep

It's one of those nights... Can't sleep. Nope. Not tired. My feet are on fire, my hips are throbbing, my knees are swollen and my hands and elbows hurt. On too of that it's Saturday - extra drugs today. My mouth feels icky and my stomach is nasty. I hate this disease. I watched a tv movie called "five" on lifetime and cried, then Forest Gump came on- cried. If you know me- I don't cry at movies. I dont. My girls love when I cant sleep because that means more snuggles for them. By the way, Olive now snores louder than Darla....Ugh. I want so much to be free of pain and am not. I miss "normal." it's old this sleeplessness and uneasiness in stomach... I've been reading. Listening to music. Praying. I'm hoping I feel rested because it's a full week ahead work wise and I need sleep! I wish I had a on/off button.

Here are my girls asleep on me (notice my red & curled toes in corner)